Pregnancy test in hand I stepped on the scale.
Just moments after finding out I was going to be a mom I did not run to tell my husband the joyful news. Instead, I stepped on a cruel machine that told me my worth, I mean, my weight. I needed to know that number so I could get back there again in nine months. In that moment I built an alter that I would worship at for the next five years.
We are a culture obsessed with weight. We let our pants size determine our value and speak hate over our own bodies if the size is larger than we think it should be. This shaming cycle has got to stop. It is a road to bondage.
Looking back I feel sorry for that weight obsessed twenty-seven year old. Instead of rejoicing over the miracle taking place in her body she was focused on the battle waiting for her after her first born would enter the world.
I write this to declare that I am not the same person I was back then! I no longer hate my body or shame it. I actually feel good in my skin and do not enter a room wondering how many people are noticing my back fat or lack of thigh gap. I AM FREE! Free even though I currently still weigh more than I did on that day. Do I have moments when I struggle to love myself? Of course. But I refuse to let those moments steal my freedom.
Freedom did not come overnight. It was a process. And I still have to stand guard and fight for it on a daily basis. But I am here to declare that freedom is possible.
In this series of blog posts I will share with you my personal battle with body shaming, food fear, and yo-yo dieting. My hope is that in sharing I can bring others one step closer to freedom.
FIRST STEP IN GETTING FREE…expose the lie!
What lie have you been believing about yourself or your body?
Healing starts when we recognize the lie we have been receiving as truth. Expose that lie and your chains will start to fall.
Share in the comments below the lie you struggle with. Expose it and let us cast it out together!
Come back next week to learn the lie I was obsessed with and more about how you can break free. It is for freedom that Christ set us free! Do you want to be free?